i don't know at i want now~~~

dear diary,

reli need some1 nw~~~ desperately~~~~ who will it b?

what shud i do~~~

i dunno wat shud i do now~~~ it's like i still got a lot of thing that i cnat solve~~~ out of my control~~~~ where shud i work? wat shud i work? money here money there~~~ everything oso need money~~~ everything is not that easy anymore~~~ ah kor~~~ i need this~~~please buy for me~~~ yi kor~~~ i need this~~~ buy sponsor me~~~~ not anymore~~~ i have to depend on myself~~~ a lot of problem~~~ if i work in kl~~~ need to find place to stay~~~ need transport~~~ need experience~~ need money 1st~~~ n now~~~ i got nth~~~ if work in tpg~~~ yes it's good~~~ but future~~ wont that bright lo~~~ den got a lot of trouble lo~~~ cant save money lo~~~ cant mix with my fren lo~~~ relative all around lo~~~ sure will argue wit mum de lo~~~ haiz~~~ dunno how!!! anyone 1 there can help? hope to find a job in kl selangor that can provide me accomodation~~ dat's all i wan!! and salary~~~ at least 2200~~~ pray hard!!

still dun understand~~~

how on earth~~~ there is such person like dat~~~~ y i didn't realize it last time~~~ a person who very like to complain, but dindnt look bac at herself.... last time she said jean alwiz show sour face~~~ n now~~ she is more terrible than her~~~ alwiz make noise during ppl sleeping~~~ so wat if u gonna leave ur boyfren~~~ so wat if there's oli 2 weeks left~~~~ dun release ur anger on me i tell u~~~ wat~~~ wen u syok den u come to talk to us n wen u bo beh syok u go n slam the door n make all those noise~~ walaueh`~~~ who do u think u r le~~~ say kenot get sun light~~ kns~~~every morning oso so noisy~~~ u already noe that ur keyboard is damn loud den go out la~~~ y u wanna to pop pop here n make noise~~~ i purposely dowan to go class today~~~ its bcos i damn beh song to c the fuck face~~~ since now oli left 15 days~~ im not gonna hide my anger o watever anymore~~~ since u so njoy to travel around then u go la~~~ no body willl stop u~~~ go~~~ so rich ma hor~~ go la~~~~ wat kind of pl is dis~~~ speechless~~~~ write until myself dunno wat to write d~~~ anyway~~ will go to Venice tonite~~ hopefully everything will b fine~~~ nth will spoil my mood~~~~

stop pretending~~~

wat the fuck~~~ dun show me the stupid fuck face k~~~~ who do u think u r~~~~ dun think everything oso have to follow wat u want~~~~ dont tink u r the boss~~~~ beh song den come n show me the stupid fuck off fuck face~~~~ everytime oso like dat~~~ i wont hiu u 1 i tell u~~~~ get out off me!!!!!!!!!

i am weak

i know that i am weak~~~ but i dunno dat i am that weak~~~ i dunno how long i can bare it~~~ how i wish u r here now~~~~ i dont know u~~~ cos u not yet come to me~~~ wen?

my dream

i dreamed a dream today~~~ i dream of a friend of mine.. long lost fren... i dunno y i dream of him... n the most weird thing was i dream about v being together~~~ i reli the dream was true but unfortunately it wont happen.... cos he is not in msia n he already engaged..... y am i dreaming such dreamy le?? mayb i reli wish someone here with me~~~ not a family not a fren but the one~~~ dunno how to describe~~~~ wat is the problem??? after so many yrs~ its time for me to wake up~ bac to the reality~~~ the reality world~~~ everything wont be that easy i know~~~ but i have to~~~ today onwards~~~ come on lili~~~ u can do it~~~

they noe d??!!! & F.A.M.I.L.Y

dun like dis feeling~~~ it's like they noe wat am i thinking~~ dun care~~~ i just dun care~~~ since v oli stay for less den 40 days~~~ n yt~~~ not less~~~ hopefully everything will end well~~~ dowan to hurt each other oso~~~~ cant wait to go bac to msia~~~~ daddy mummy i miss u~~~ n my bro n sis in law too~~~ my family is ok ma? seems that there are many problem since i came here~~~ hope there no much changes~~~ i hate changes~~~ especially those i ~~~ i hope it wont hapen~~~ i hope its i think too much~~~ nth will be happen~~~ everything will be fine~~~~ god bless~~~