what shud i do~~~

i dunno wat shud i do now~~~ it's like i still got a lot of thing that i cnat solve~~~ out of my control~~~~ where shud i work? wat shud i work? money here money there~~~ everything oso need money~~~ everything is not that easy anymore~~~ ah kor~~~ i need this~~~please buy for me~~~ yi kor~~~ i need this~~~ buy sponsor me~~~~ not anymore~~~ i have to depend on myself~~~ a lot of problem~~~ if i work in kl~~~ need to find place to stay~~~ need transport~~~ need experience~~ need money 1st~~~ n now~~~ i got nth~~~ if work in tpg~~~ yes it's good~~~ but future~~ wont that bright lo~~~ den got a lot of trouble lo~~~ cant save money lo~~~ cant mix with my fren lo~~~ relative all around lo~~~ sure will argue wit mum de lo~~~ haiz~~~ dunno how!!! anyone 1 there can help? hope to find a job in kl selangor that can provide me accomodation~~ dat's all i wan!! and salary~~~ at least 2200~~~ pray hard!!

still dun understand~~~

how on earth~~~ there is such person like dat~~~~ y i didn't realize it last time~~~ a person who very like to complain, but dindnt look bac at herself.... last time she said jean alwiz show sour face~~~ n now~~ she is more terrible than her~~~ alwiz make noise during ppl sleeping~~~ so wat if u gonna leave ur boyfren~~~ so wat if there's oli 2 weeks left~~~~ dun release ur anger on me i tell u~~~ wat~~~ wen u syok den u come to talk to us n wen u bo beh syok u go n slam the door n make all those noise~~ walaueh`~~~ who do u think u r le~~~ say kenot get sun light~~ kns~~~every morning oso so noisy~~~ u already noe that ur keyboard is damn loud den go out la~~~ y u wanna to pop pop here n make noise~~~ i purposely dowan to go class today~~~ its bcos i damn beh song to c the fuck face~~~ since now oli left 15 days~~ im not gonna hide my anger o watever anymore~~~ since u so njoy to travel around then u go la~~~ no body willl stop u~~~ go~~~ so rich ma hor~~ go la~~~~ wat kind of pl is dis~~~ speechless~~~~ write until myself dunno wat to write d~~~ anyway~~ will go to Venice tonite~~ hopefully everything will b fine~~~ nth will spoil my mood~~~~

stop pretending~~~

wat the fuck~~~ dun show me the stupid fuck face k~~~~ who do u think u r~~~~ dun think everything oso have to follow wat u want~~~~ dont tink u r the boss~~~~ beh song den come n show me the stupid fuck off fuck face~~~~ everytime oso like dat~~~ i wont hiu u 1 i tell u~~~~ get out off me!!!!!!!!!

i am weak

i know that i am weak~~~ but i dunno dat i am that weak~~~ i dunno how long i can bare it~~~ how i wish u r here now~~~~ i dont know u~~~ cos u not yet come to me~~~ wen?

my dream

i dreamed a dream today~~~ i dream of a friend of mine.. long lost fren... i dunno y i dream of him... n the most weird thing was i dream about v being together~~~ i reli the dream was true but unfortunately it wont happen.... cos he is not in msia n he already engaged..... y am i dreaming such dreamy le?? mayb i reli wish someone here with me~~~ not a family not a fren but the one~~~ dunno how to describe~~~~ wat is the problem??? after so many yrs~ its time for me to wake up~ bac to the reality~~~ the reality world~~~ everything wont be that easy i know~~~ but i have to~~~ today onwards~~~ come on lili~~~ u can do it~~~

they noe d??!!! & F.A.M.I.L.Y

dun like dis feeling~~~ it's like they noe wat am i thinking~~ dun care~~~ i just dun care~~~ since v oli stay for less den 40 days~~~ n yt~~~ not less~~~ hopefully everything will end well~~~ dowan to hurt each other oso~~~~ cant wait to go bac to msia~~~~ daddy mummy i miss u~~~ n my bro n sis in law too~~~ my family is ok ma? seems that there are many problem since i came here~~~ hope there no much changes~~~ i hate changes~~~ especially those i ~~~ i hope it wont hapen~~~ i hope its i think too much~~~ nth will be happen~~~ everything will be fine~~~~ god bless~~~

wat the f**

please la~~~ sumtimes reli cant bare with attitude anymore~~~ she noe i was sleeping n yet~~ grab the plastic bag la~~~ later put her things harder until got sound la~~ cant just she put the things slowly meh~~~ n the plastic bag~~~ cant she just go out from the room n do it out there meh~~~ reli dunno how to considerate at all~~~~~ go die la~~~ alwiz complain bout ppl~~~ n yet ~~~ do the same thing~~~~ reli hate dis kind of ppl`~~ luckily not gonna stay wit her for a long period~~~ or else im gona die o i will just tell her i beh song her~~~

alwiz say dis n say dat`~~~ dis not the 1st time she wakes me up~~~~ she complain n say dat jean type till very loud~~~ n yet~~~ she herself oso loud like hell~~~ most of the time oso i heard her pi pa pi pa typing sound n wake me up~~~~ abo le jao listen music~~~ please la~~ ppl sleeping here la~~~ seng mok a bit la~~~ den nvm summore~~~~ ppl watching movie here~~~ den~~ she go n open the music there~~~ stupid la~~~

n den le~~~ alwiz think dat ppl will go n read her msg~~~ wen she skype wit her bf~~~ alwiz say~~~ dun look a~~~ stupid la~~~ fuck off la~~~ not interested oso~~~~ not every1 oso like u k~~~ alwiz look at ppl msg without permission~~~ dat y mun yee~~~ i dare not to tell u bout them wen they are around~~~ cos sumtimes she wil just look at my conversation n i din notice it~~~ how on earth got dis type of ppl~~~ reli speechless~~~~

dunno i can bare till how long~~~ there are still 40 days to go~~~
n another thing~~~ she reli very fake~~~ she noe everything n yet she pretend like she dunno~~~ n the trip~~~ got boyfren dai sai meh~~~~ dowan go den tell early la~~~ dun so fake there k~~~ wat erm... he ask me to go~~~ but erm... c how 1st la~~~ erm.. dowan la..... u plans are not good enuf~~~ very tiring~~~ 3 days oli~~~ go die la~~~ last time wen v go malta oso like dat la~~~ din c u say like dat~~~~ dowan go means dowan go~~~ dun give xcuse here n complain here~~~ dun blame bout the plan~~~ u r the 1st 1 to promise su n say wanna go holiday wit her~~~ n now u got bf d ffk ppl~~~~ n put the responsible to us~~~~ last time say ok ok~~~~ n now u r the 1 who say dowan~~~ say kenot~~~ i oso dowan go actually~~~ but den i promise means i'll do~~~ not like u~~~ like shit!!!!!!!!

another thing~~~~ forget wat to say d~~~ ah`~~~~ alwiz buy all those xpensive thing~~~~ ok la~~~ u got lots of money la~~ so wat~~~ not like u lo~~~ ppl will buy both xpensive n cheap thing lo~~~ they are china~~ dowan go there o buy~~~ oh~~~ rachel they all go to mcD~~ disgusting~~ follow wat we do~~~ please la~~~ the mcD u open 1 meh~~ ppl kenot go de meh~~~ alwiz complain n complain~~~ argghhh!!!!!!!!!!!

gau meng a!!!!!!!! dunno wat to say bout her d~~~ from now on~~ i will do watever i wan~~~ i dun care!!!!!

totally agreed

i'm totally agreed wit wat jean said yesterday`~~~~ y she alwiz complain n compare her so call bf le~~~~ u noe urself den ok d la~~~ ok la~~~ wen u share ur hapiness den i still can bare it la~~~ n nw~~~ compare dis compare dat!!!! wat the fck1!!! summore wat!!! ok~~~ v go to play wit him is ok~~~i dun even bother dat u just leave me n jean alone. i did njoy myself~~~ but please la~~~ dun show dat u r suffering ~~~ i dun like walking without reason~~~ wth~~~~ stop to look kenot~~~ har~~~ take photo kenot~~~ tell la if u dun like dis~~~ y have to 'yan yan yan"???? after yan den come n complain to us~~~ u noe wat is my feeling??!!! i was like~~~ wat the fuck~~~ i waste my time n money for u n now u say u r not happy wit wat u did?!!! i was like~~~ char tao!!!! den summore nvm~~~ show me all those stupid fuck face~~~ n keep on complaining~~~ wat if u r in my shoe??!!! i dunno i can tahan till wen? if reli 1 day i dowan choi her d den she will die i think~~~~~ she is rite!!!! she might lost her fren due to her so call bf!!!! especially me~~~ but i dun care anyway~~~ oli here~~~ in italy~~~ after dat!!!! sayonara!!!

huh~~~~ so hard for me to start a blog~~~

i'm stupid~~~ dian nao bai chi is me~~~ lolx....
really very angry today~~~ wat the fuck!!!! wat???!!! just bos u got bf doesn't means dat u can on9 k~~~ i pay the same amount too k~~~ please la~~~~ dun show me ur fuck face k~~~ wat the fuck~~~ another 1 oso~~~ purposely make me hot!!! wat??!!! very funny izit~~~ very happy to wen im angry ha~~~ please la`~~~~ reli tired~~~ need to pretend myself~~~~ wen can i stop pretending~~~ can i just take of my mask~~~~ can i just voice out wen im bo syok??!!! ok
i did it actually~~~ i reli din care bout her~~~ try to make me angry again n c~~~ sure u will regret~~~
dun think i am easy to bully~~~~ i just dowan to cari pasal~~~
but end up ok la~~~~
reli dowan to go out wit her just now~~~ but she pula wan to follow wor~~~ haiz~~~
and another thing~~~
alwoiz talk about her bf to me~~~ ok la~~~
say 1 time ok la~~~ but den le~~~~ alwiz repeat n repeat~~~ sian ok`~~~ beh tahan a~~~
i noe la now u got bf~~~ i know la now u r happy~~~~ please jaga my feeling oso la~~~~
seng mok a bit k~~~~ reli dowan hear wat u say sometimes~~~~ n 1 more thing~~~ ppl dun bother to read ur msg o ur skype k~~ dun so perasan la~~~ speechless~~~~
reli cant wait to go bak~~~~ so dat no need to stay wit u all again~~~ fren is ok~~~ housemate?? roommate??? no thanz~~~
n everytime i give comment~~~ o any decision i make~~~ they wont bother me!!!o just ignore me~~~
den end up~~~~ do wat i said~~~ but den le~~~ come out from another person~~~~ sian a~~~~
every time oso tot that themself very geng~~~ sai la~~ end up ma end wit my idea~~~ oli thing is~~~ haiz~~~ not come out from my mouth de~~~~ kns~~~

I create this blog because.....

i never think of myself would ever create this thing in my life before this~~~ but somehow~~~ now~~~ maybe there's no nowhere for me to express myself~~~ I'm not happy recently~~~ and yet~~~ have to pretend to be happy~~~
i hope that i can express all my feeling here~~~ otherwise~~~ i don't know what will happen to me~~~